Why do I insist on sleeping through all my classes? I hate myself sometimes….

Jesus, I missed all my freaking classes again I’m really screwing the pooch now I don’t even know how many absences that is but If I can’t count them on one hand, don’t bother. I just got my midterm grades and doing pretty mediocre for the most part, I got a C+ in Algebra Concepts, and F in Chemistry, and F in Web programming I even though my Professor told me not to worry about it and God knows what in Psychology cause my teacher hasn’t grading the only test we ever took that class.

Ok something has to give obviously my behavior has to change because I’m producing the same results as last year….this is not what I had in mind when came back, maybe it’s the lack of studing, endless hours of video games, or spending ridiculous amount of time with friends why I’m in this predicament well you what?

I gotta start over with what I got and make something out of nothing, and that starts with my horrible sleep patterns, lack of time management (To begin studying at 2 0′clock in the morning might not be the best time….) and Study environments like my room are the reason I get close to nothing done…But where do I start I have a project due 2 days from now and I haven’t started oh yeah coffee and red bull for the win? NO MORE MESSED UP SLEEP PATTERNS FOR ME……

I’m gonna start watching every second of every minute of every hour of the day and see exactly what I’m doing at the that time to put and end to this ridiculous shenanigans I’ve been doing for like most of my educational career. Google Calendar will be downloaded cause I barely even use microsoft outlook. And that should help in dividends when managing time, when work needs to done keep social interactions to a minimum and most important of ALL STAY FOCUSED!!!!

Henry Ford said this quote that I really like I think it was something like

“The first requisite for success is to focus both mental and physical energies into a task without growing weary”

Such a great quote because I FOR THE LIFE OF ME CANNOT FOCUSED WITH ALL MY mental and physical energies on one specific tasks like homework, without getting weary, tired, bored or restless it’s a really bad quality because it usually results in me taking lots for breaks to clear my head. So I end up clearing my head with two hours of video games and not finishing the assignment.

“Most Men Misfortune, is the result of Misused Time” – I forgot….lol

I’m one of those Men……but I’m keep trying learn from my mistakes this time and get this project done and do my thing cause the only person who can stop me is me.

Well see what happens so I will be careful to take care of the seconds and minutes in the day and the hours will take care of themselves right?

right? times a-wasting……..

Damn Magic Lost, And I still don’t have a girlfriend….life sucks…lol

It’s been 1 day since I last posted, and while I take time to figure out what is the source of my kyptonite, I received a call from my friend who hacked his Xbox 360 by himself, and needed help testing the setup of a new server he put up. I was admittely shocked and dissapointed in myself when he called because I had no clue how to hack an Xbox 360 or even setup a server and Me and friend has been in school for the same amount of years.

Damn…..I suck.

Yesterday Me and my friend went to Starbucks, but not before I got to see one of my best childhood friends go off to his High School Prom. I was so proud to see him in his fresh suit, all grown up and mature. It’s moments like that when you see how far you friends have grown, inevitably also noticing how old you are simultaneously. Watching him go off to his Prom and take pictures, cause me to reminiscence about my Prom and the chances I didn’t take. Don’t get me wrong I a lot of fun at my prom, an absolute blast, but I know I would have  been more fun if I actually had a date…lol

My other friend who’s 22 was with me when we saw our childhood friend drive off in the limo with his date, and while Me and my friend’s big brother was happy to see our friend experience such an significant event in his life. My friend seem distant, he missed is prom and it seem to eat at him to see everything he missed.

Shortly after, me and friend traveled to Starbucks, you see my friend is a major caffeine head I mean an espresso junkie and he needs his daily fix, I just accompany him while he fulfills his addiction(yeah I don’t help at all lol…). While at Starbucks me friend tells me he regrets missing his Prom after seeing our childhood friend go off to his Prom.

While he elaborates on the subject, I drift off into selfish mode, and begin to scan the habitat, damn does Starbucks always has this many fine females? I’m about to become addicted to caffeine myself…lol, I drift back into the conversation and my boy is talking about his past relationship mistakes, me like clockwork, tell him about the mistakes I’ve make and how, we gotta get ourselves out there and start talking to some chicks.

But inevitably, me and friend are all talk and no action, so while we talk about what actions were going to take differently to successfully get with a chick, there’s all these fine honeys walking around Starbucks, begging to be talked to and guess what we did?

We finished our drinks, conversation and left…..as usual…..

bunch of pansys if you ask me…..lol

And I wonder why I don’t have a girlfriend….sheesh.

Plus Magic lost because dumbass Hedo Turkuglo (sry for misspelling his name but cut me some slack here) can’t make a free throw to save himself, and Dwight Howard all because you sent the playoff record for 9 blks in a playoff game doesn’t give you the right to miss clutch free throws when you ONLY UP BY 3. Because it gives Derek Fisher’s bald headed ass a reason to tie the game up and sent the game into overtime…..and if it’s one thing you don’t want to do it’s go to OT with Kobe Bryant.

Because the Black Mamba is a beast….

So I still lack a girlfriend, and my team is 3-1 in the NBA finals and I don’t have a car so I can’t even save money on car insurance my switching to Geico.

For some reason I got the sudden urge to ride my bike again so I will maybe I’ll start exercising seriously again, oh yeah if you like Kanye West check out that song Super Nova with Mr. Hudson (he’s awesome) and Clispe ft Pharrel called “I’m Good” it’s like my theme song right now….

till next time cheers-

Where I am now, and Where I want to be….

The story or blog begins with this kid, or young man rather. His name is Errol, Errol Tafari Wallace, he is anxious, ambitious, and curious about life. But enough about my background story let get to the juicy details of why I’m really writing this blog.

Well… let’s just say I’m not as happy as I know I can be, I feel that my whole life I’ve been full of so much potential but fear of being successful fear of being great, holds me back of being the best Mr. Wallace I can be. I’ve been living this way with small regrets for all my life, because of my insecurities I’ve really never had a real decent relationship or significant success in my life.

So figured to myself , being 19 years old from this day onward will document and write a blog everyday about the transition I make from being an average teenager to hopefully a successful young man.