Why do I insist on sleeping through all my classes? I hate myself sometimes….

Jesus, I missed all my freaking classes again I’m really screwing the pooch now I don’t even know how many absences that is but If I can’t count them on one hand, don’t bother. I just got my midterm grades and doing pretty mediocre for the most part, I got a C+ in Algebra Concepts, and F in Chemistry, and F in Web programming I even though my Professor told me not to worry about it and God knows what in Psychology cause my teacher hasn’t grading the only test we ever took that class.

Ok something has to give obviously my behavior has to change because I’m producing the same results as last year….this is not what I had in mind when came back, maybe it’s the lack of studing, endless hours of video games, or spending ridiculous amount of time with friends why I’m in this predicament well you what?

I gotta start over with what I got and make something out of nothing, and that starts with my horrible sleep patterns, lack of time management (To begin studying at 2 0′clock in the morning might not be the best time….) and Study environments like my room are the reason I get close to nothing done…But where do I start I have a project due 2 days from now and I haven’t started oh yeah coffee and red bull for the win? NO MORE MESSED UP SLEEP PATTERNS FOR ME……

I’m gonna start watching every second of every minute of every hour of the day and see exactly what I’m doing at the that time to put and end to this ridiculous shenanigans I’ve been doing for like most of my educational career. Google Calendar will be downloaded cause I barely even use microsoft outlook. And that should help in dividends when managing time, when work needs to done keep social interactions to a minimum and most important of ALL STAY FOCUSED!!!!

Henry Ford said this quote that I really like I think it was something like

“The first requisite for success is to focus both mental and physical energies into a task without growing weary”

Such a great quote because I FOR THE LIFE OF ME CANNOT FOCUSED WITH ALL MY mental and physical energies on one specific tasks like homework, without getting weary, tired, bored or restless it’s a really bad quality because it usually results in me taking lots for breaks to clear my head. So I end up clearing my head with two hours of video games and not finishing the assignment.

“Most Men Misfortune, is the result of Misused Time” – I forgot….lol

I’m one of those Men……but I’m keep trying learn from my mistakes this time and get this project done and do my thing cause the only person who can stop me is me.

Well see what happens so I will be careful to take care of the seconds and minutes in the day and the hours will take care of themselves right?

right? times a-wasting……..

I Know I’m a guy but, Seven pounds made my cry…

Alright, I’m back on my high horse, thanks to Will smith’s brilliant, and touching performance in the movie “Seven pounds”. Ok, I’m not acting like I’m a tough guy or anything, but I usually don’t cry when I watch movies. (That’s not true you teared up when Will smith was holding his son in the bathroom in the Movie “The Pursuit of happiness”…).

Ok maybe I’m a softie, but this movie had me choked up, cause the fate of Will Smith’s character is inevitable, and while you watch the movie, playing detective trying to unravel the true motives of his character you end up revealing just how great and awe-inspiring the kindness and unselfishness that Will Smith’s character exhibited which is extremely rare and is seen in very few people. All I gotta say is that it inspired me to take a look at myself as a person, and you should watch it as well…if you watch it already, WATCH IT AGAIN! lol….Magic got their ass handed to them by the Lakers in a 4-1 finish in the NBA finals, so I’m not even going to dwell on that subject, cause quite frankly, it hurts so back what’s happening:

I don’t really know what kick me back into high gear but I’m really gettin my life routine back together, I started exercising again, I’m studying my web programming book again, and doing my part to help mom around house. It’s funny cause the other day I wrote a blog barely being able to get my lazy ass out of bed.

But now I’m focused, determined the ambition and drive is back, THE KID IS BACK! Yeah… it felt good to say that but I gotta be consistent if any of these words I write are gonna be concrete or hold any weight, cause saying it when you first doing it and following through are to completely different things.

Okay so the booty, raised a brow no? well….there’s been another area that I wanted to improve in and yeah you quess it relationships. But I think all this time I got wrong cause I know in my previous post I was talking about wanting a relationship and having a girlfriend and the whole nine yards.

But I figured, I’m only like 19 years old, so I should still enjoy myself while I’m still young ya dig? I feel like I missed out on SO MANY opportunities that I had with promiscuous females cause I was how would you say “happy go lucky guy” who didn’t partake in being promiscuous.

Now tell me, ain’t that some bullshit? I’m in my second year of college and barely did shit, cause I’m looking for the ONE, well as of right now….screw that I’m looking what options I got right now. And don’t get me wrong I’m not gonna be an asshole and go from one girl to another, i’m just enjoying myself until I find out who is wifey material….

That didn’t sound to much better did it………

Till next time kids, deuces…..

If you don’t have a summer job, don’t make sleeping a hobby….

Yawn…..How the hell did I managed to sleep from 1 p.m to 6 p.m. in the middle of the day? Jesus, I need to be productive, I need I job fast. It’s funny you know because when I was a young lad, I would swear up and down that I didn’t need to sleep and believed if I was by some miracle I did fail asleep I was gonna miss something. I would sleep for like 2 hours and wake up just in time for saturday morning cartoons, as far I was was concerned “sleeping was for the weak”.

But man has time changed, now that my sleep pattern is all messed up, when I wake up I’m still tired, and I have to deal with the consequences of self-pity because I basically slept through the entire day. It sucks, because I lose all my ambition and drive, because when you wake up 6 o’clock in the evening seriously what the hell can you do?

Well….sometime I gotta get head above water or in this case out of the pillow, if I want make a change for the better.